Oh my oh my. I failed my maths.
So dissapointed. I was confident when Mr Koh decided to tell us who passed or failed after being presurrised by everyone. For others, yes Jun He is a failure. I fail all the time. No one cares if i fail.
But this time its different. I had put in so much effort for the final years. Science, Maths ALL.
But i screwed up yet again. Why? I have no answer.
I was confident, before, during and after the paper. Though i lost quite many marks in paper 2, 10 odd. I was still confident that my paper 1 would pull me up and hopefully pass.
Was so hurt when Mr Koh said some things to the class. Make friends with only the correct people. Dont hang around with those 'bad' people too much.
I nearly broke down the class. Was just so close to crying infront of everyone.
I know that it wasnt directed at me. But as i thought back, i was just wasting my time in school, wasting my life.
I simply joked my day away. Play, play and play. Didnt do maths.
In primary school, maths' so bloody easy. I can easily score 90 without doing anything.
I got an A* for maths to Mr Koh's surprise when he asked last time.
But i guess, i've only myself to blame. Not doing my work, not taking my life seriously. I had little expectations of myself and just wanted to eek out results.
Contended when i pass.
But this isnt the real me. I wanna be smart. Who doesnt want to?
I wanna get into top 5 in chinese. I can but i didnt.
I can get good grades for maths. B at least in my opinion. IF i studied and did my work.
Wait. I studied for this eoy maths and everything else.
I did all the eoy papers, went through all the past papers, mistakes etc. Just hoping i can pass my maths, promote to sec 3 and start my life new.
But this isnt gonna happen. I had high expectations and naturally i was god damn depressed when i realised i failed.
But, this amount of last minute work wont help will it?
Thanks Kenneth, for telling me that i am your good friend when i needed it the most.
When i believed i was one of the people Mr Koh harshly mentioned.
But after his lashing on us, or perhaps him feeling sad too, i was slapped awake.
Ugh, why are my songs so emo. I feel so sad. Very sad.
Wouldnt it be easy if i can just go to some high rise building and just.. end it off?
