The day started with me waking up early despite sleeping at 5 as it's really tough to sleep the night before. Upon reaching school, i mingled with everyone before heading to the General Office to collect my Good Progress award, as well as clearing the arrears i owed the school.
Then Mdm Wong already gave me the gauge that i didn't do well, though i wasn't expecting 9.
Surprisingly our batch did a lot better than most of the previous batches, in fact our mean L1R5 was 10.0.
Sadly though, the results did not speak that way as many people didn't meet their expectations. Maybe we did not get 10.0 after all.
Anyway upon getting my result slip, i took another 5 minutes before deciding to open it up. Looking at the alphabets, i was surprised i had a B in there, which was English. Feeling appalled, i immediately went to check out my results before finding out i had 9.
As promised, i called my mom immediately and she was shocked that i had 9, though she said she'd be there for me. Honestly i nearly teared during that short conversation.
Like they all say, the higher you aim, the better you'd achieve even if you do fail. However they also say, the higher you climb, the higher you fall, just that the latter isn't told with the former to make us dream.
Yes i dreamt, dreamt of 6 points. I dreamt of going into RJC, dreamt of getting 7 points minimum. Dreamt about this, dreamt about that.
Reality struck and my bubble burst. All of my dreams were just a facade. Maybe i aimed too high. I probably wasn't capable of achieving 6 but then i just told myself i could. Perhaps that explains the hurt i felt.
Frankly, i guess i deserved an A2 for Geography because i really became overconfident and many things happened which is too draggy to talk about anyway. And then for English. Okay it hasn't been A1 material but a B3 is really unexpected for me.
Well at least I've learnt something from this episode, though the price is really too high to pay. 9 is honestly for me, bullshit (not rubbing in at those who fared worse, no) but i guess God wanted to teach me a lesson :)
This brings me to my resolution for the year school term.
No. 1 Learn to settle for second best
The quote on my blog, "If you are first, you are first. If you are second, you are nothing." by Bill Shankly only makes things worse now though that man made this comment when it really was fact. Second best isn't that bad actually. Imagine, i wouldn't be half as sad had i scored 7, would i?
All my life I've always wanted the best. The best clothes. The best shoes.
When i play football, i expect the my teammate to put in their very best. I don't expect mistakes. I expect to win all the time, not lose.
(continued from two days ago)
Wouldn't my life so much better if I'll settle for something simpler. Wouldn't i enjoy the a game of football better if i just play my game and let the others play theirs? After all, "it's just a game"
I guess it would be a whole lot better. And that's why i guess i got over this so soon :)
No. 2 Not be so confident/Appear confident
I don't know actually, not be so confident or not appear confident.
I typed an entire paragraph before this but thought I'd just let my case rest and be quietly confident, confident inside me and be ready to shoot others (like me) down whenever i can.
Alright alright i admit I'm overconfident at times, that I'll change but i don't think i am cocky, am i?
Maybe letting my confidence be known to myself would suffice since i suppose there aren't any positives to one being confident.
And to Jun Yao, really, i believe this episode teaches us/me about Karma and i really do believe that it exists.
No. 3 Think twice before taking any actions
Actually i think this was my resolution for 2008 and I'm glad to say that I've met it though to err is human. Thinking twice before saying or doing anything will indeed reduce the chance of erring something, really.
So i shall not go further into saying this but i hope that this will continue for the rest of 2009.
No. 4 Plan early and stick to my goals
I think this will be my last resolution for this school year. I'll be getting a really good planner, those with dates and sufficient space in it to write on and well, I'll plan!
I'll plan out my days in advance. I'll plan to find time to study for my examinations (i really hope to). I'll plan to not make any event clash. Last but not least, i plan to score 4As for my A' Levels!
Yeah big talk again but the aim of this 4th resolution is to lead me to the 4As by hook or by crook. I checked and ACJC has approximately 140 students who have 4As and above so i will make it into that small group of students if i do go into ACJC!
If you're wondering why i have this 4As goal, that is because i found this out which wanting to decide if not taking certain subjects will hinder what i can take in university.
And yeah, Oxford gives "Conditional offers for A-level students are likely to be AAA. Providing that any specific subject requirements have been met, all A-levels are approved for admissions purposes, with the exception of General Studies."
So 4 As should be enough! Won't it?
So start working towards your aim Neo Jun He! You all should too and yes, I have learned so, so much. Just too much for a lesson though :)
Name: Jun He, Torres
Age: Okay i am sixteen, happy? :D
D.O.B: 1 December 1992
Location: Singapore
School: Mayflower Primary Anderson Secondary 1/4, 2/4, 3/6. 4/6 Saint Andrew's Junior College!
Interests: Football
Likes: Torres! Gerrard and hawt babes :D
Hates: Twits, Mancs.
Wants: A friend like you!
